Weakness to Strength

Hello WordPress friends! I realize that it’s really been a while since I’ve posted anything here and my apologies. Kelvin and I got caught up in making YouTube videos and with both of us working full-time, some things got neglected. Anyways, the reason I’m writing today is to share something amazing I realized.

We are constantly told and we read it in the Bible that God uses people that are imperfect to glorify Him. Moses hesitated and claimed he wasn’t a good speaker, Abraham was very old, Joseph was enslaved, Jonah ran from God, and the list goes on. Despite these weaknesses and imperfections, God showed his glory through them all because it is even more amazing to see. When someone is “perfect”, it could just be attributed to their own ability.

So what I’ve come to realize is that for as long as I can remember, public speaking or speaking in general has been my weakness. Not in the way that I never had subject-verb agreement, but rather I always spoke too fast and was very nervous. I’m not sure how and when it developed, but I’ve always been a fast talker. To the point that it’s even hard for some friends to understand me. I thought going through business school would straighten me out but it only made it worse because everyone was so good at public speaking and everyone was so charismatic!

But fast forward to now and my job is to talk and teach. I can’t believe that I make a living by talking! I never would have thought this would be me. I always thought I would be a quiet office worker but now I can’t possibly imagine that being my life. What I have now is so much better and it’s preparing me so much better for missions in Japan. I can see now that God has given me this gift of teaching and making students feel proud of their learning and I can’t wait to take it to the mission field and be of use there. But in the meantime, I’m perfectly content teaching Sunday School and my wonderful students at school.

Sometimes God won’t turn your weakness into a strength until later. Maybe it’ll be like me and you’ll have to wait 20+ years to see it, but trust and believe that it will happen.


Sticks and Stones


Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.

If you don’t know, this is an old English nursery rhyme reminding a victim of bullying to ignore the taunts and refrain from physical retaliation.

Growing up, I heard this a lot and recently thought about it some more. It is true that words won’t be able to physically hurt me like sticks and stones do, but does the emotional hurt that it causes do more harm than sticks and stones?

It’s normal for couples, friends, family members, or anyone in any sort of relationship to have disagreements and argue every now and then. The cause could be an unpleasant action, or possible unkind words. Even if the words were not ill-intentioned, words carry a lot of meaning and I think it can hurt more than any physical object.

I have a problem. When I’m around close family and friends, I don’t think before I speak. Not that I should censor everything I say and be meticulous about it, but there are certain things that may sound funny in my head but it is the opposite in real life. Unfortunately, I think my husband takes the brunt of this, especially after my long tiring days at work. I know that I have to be more aware of what I am saying because I accidentally called him a name that he did not appreciate the other night. I never meant for it to be harmful and hurtful, I actually meant for it to be a joke, but it came out like an insult. It was my mistake and after reflecting on it, I realized I need to be much more careful about the words I choose to say.

29 Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.

Ephesians 4:29

I want my words to be encouraging, loving, and edifying. I’ve been saved by grace through faith and as per Ephesians 4:17-32, I have been renewed and given new life! It’s not that I must, but that I want to put away my old ways of speaking whatever pops into my head, and to be more careful and choice with my words. It’s not to censor myself, but it’s to help me make sure I’m saying and communicating what I’m actually intending.

How does this verse speak to you?

I Never Could Have Imagined…


I was reading this article and it really struck a chord with me. It’s titled “So Your Life Didn’t Turn Out The Way You’d Hoped”. Boy I wish I had this bit of encouragement last year but I’m hoping it can be encouraging for any of you brothers and sisters out there who need to hear it now.

I think we were raised in an environment where many people told us “you are unique and you’re going places!”, or something along those lines. Now I’m not denying the fact that each one of us is unique and has different things to contribute, but it can be misleading to tell every child that their uniqueness is going to be world/life changing.

I felt like one of these children growing up and I imagined my future working life to be amazing and life changing. I expected to work hard at the beginning, but that it would soon lead to amazing epic experiences that would catapult me into success. See the problem is, I had a very wrong view of what a meaningful and successful life would look like.

I used to think that I had to be a somebody by the world’s standards and somehow be a “super Christian” at the same time. But now, I realize it’s completely ok to be a nobody by this world’s standards because that is no longer how I measure success or my self-worth. I don’t measure it with my salary, possessions, or status. A full and meaningful life for me is quality time with family, friends, and growing deeper in the Lord. It’s knowing that what I’m doing now, is contributing to His kingdom.

So for all us millennials out there that are having our quarter life crisis and wondering why God hasn’t allowed us to achieve greatness, consider this. It’s quoted from the article in Relevant Magazine:

…it’s OK to be a nobody by the world’s standards. In fact, despite our striving and straining, most of us will be. Your greatest challenge isn’t achieving greatness. It’s realizing the greatness in what God is accomplishing in you where you are (which may require you to redefine what greatness really means) and being consistently faithful right there.

I encourage you to read the full article, it’s a good one, and let me know your thoughts.

Thanks for stopping by and have a wonderful day 🙂